Not Off to the Best Start

    Junk food and snacking is a lot more addictive than you might think. Soda, cake, mini-donuts, chips, frozen Swiss Rolls (you've GOTTA try 'em frozen), and graham crackers dipped in cream cheese frosting... it's hard to break the habits that started only this summer. Since Monday, I've been to the gym three times, so as lovely as that is, it's not as much as I had hoped for. On a better note, I've been drinking a truckload and a half of water from my Camelback. I think everyone trying to lose weight should have one because they are a wonderful gift from God!

    For starters, week 1 was a flip. Hopefully, next week will be a bunch better, and I will be able to report daily like I was intending to.

Step 1: Seeing the Need

     For some people, having a thin frame comes naturally, but for others (like me), it's been a constant struggle since the young age of seven, which was also the last time I wore a bikini. I've always been on the heavy side and promised myself that I would never get as big as I was my senior year of high school. After spending a summer in Honduras after graduation, I lost 40 pounds and was just starting to feel good about my body. Until last December, I had kept those glorious 40 pounds off but for Christmas, my family, boyfriend and I went on a cruise. Thank you, buffet, for helping me gain back that weight PLUS add on another 10 ungodly pounds. Nine months have flown by and I haven't lost anything... discouraging? Yes. Have I worked at it? Not really. Monday, September 13th will mark a new beginning for me...

     Why do I want to lose weight? For starters, I feel awful and extremely unattractive for my boyfriend... speaking of boyfriend, we're very serious and have been talking about getting married. I don't want to be a fat bride!!! I'm thinking that I'm going to need a lot of time to lose weight and get down to meet my goal. Just so you're aware, I'm wanting to lose 130 pounds and to get out of a size 22 and into a single-digit size. Also, I need to get healthier so that I'm not taking medications, etc that can be changed with losing quite a bit of weight.

     With all of that being said, it's time to lose weight and become a better me. "Gold's Gym is my friend, and I will go. Gold's Gym is my friend, and I will go." I want to look into the mirror and not have to roll my eyes or tear up at the sight of a beluga whale. When I say that I'm fat, don't think that I'm one of those 100lb girls, complaining and wanting to lose weight because her pinky toe just might be a bit chubby... I'm f-a-t, like whoooooa. I'm giving myself a year and a half to lose 130 pounds and to meet my goal weight. Hopefully by then, I'll be planning a wedding and can finally start thinking about a dress because God only knows that I hate shopping at this size! The whole thing starts this Monday, so GO GO GO!!


     PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me out with this! I need some people who can hold me accountable to my goal and keep me on track.