Step 1: Seeing the Need

     For some people, having a thin frame comes naturally, but for others (like me), it's been a constant struggle since the young age of seven, which was also the last time I wore a bikini. I've always been on the heavy side and promised myself that I would never get as big as I was my senior year of high school. After spending a summer in Honduras after graduation, I lost 40 pounds and was just starting to feel good about my body. Until last December, I had kept those glorious 40 pounds off but for Christmas, my family, boyfriend and I went on a cruise. Thank you, buffet, for helping me gain back that weight PLUS add on another 10 ungodly pounds. Nine months have flown by and I haven't lost anything... discouraging? Yes. Have I worked at it? Not really. Monday, September 13th will mark a new beginning for me...

     Why do I want to lose weight? For starters, I feel awful and extremely unattractive for my boyfriend... speaking of boyfriend, we're very serious and have been talking about getting married. I don't want to be a fat bride!!! I'm thinking that I'm going to need a lot of time to lose weight and get down to meet my goal. Just so you're aware, I'm wanting to lose 130 pounds and to get out of a size 22 and into a single-digit size. Also, I need to get healthier so that I'm not taking medications, etc that can be changed with losing quite a bit of weight.

     With all of that being said, it's time to lose weight and become a better me. "Gold's Gym is my friend, and I will go. Gold's Gym is my friend, and I will go." I want to look into the mirror and not have to roll my eyes or tear up at the sight of a beluga whale. When I say that I'm fat, don't think that I'm one of those 100lb girls, complaining and wanting to lose weight because her pinky toe just might be a bit chubby... I'm f-a-t, like whoooooa. I'm giving myself a year and a half to lose 130 pounds and to meet my goal weight. Hopefully by then, I'll be planning a wedding and can finally start thinking about a dress because God only knows that I hate shopping at this size! The whole thing starts this Monday, so GO GO GO!!


     PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me out with this! I need some people who can hold me accountable to my goal and keep me on track.